After every exhilarating experience, is the period of being brought back down. This week has been that for me. I am working diligently to get my first class series on the way, but I am feeling the fatigue of all the mental and physical work that has gone on since the training. I like hard work though, and I am so grateful. A local chiropractor is hosting my first series, and I am so excited! It is a blessing to me, and everything is coming together. I can’t wait to be a “teacher” again!
Otherwise, we have our 5th big snow of the last two months. I have to be honest here and say I am tired of that – beyond tired. I had to get out in it yesterday and take myself to the doctor, which required a little hike to the vehicle. Then, I had to drive 20 miles an hour, which is extremely hard for my wound up self to do. John told me about 50 times to be careful and not rush. I said that I wasn’t setting out to get myself hurt, but to go to the doctor. We laughed.
So, it was no surprise to me that by the time I reached the doctor in the next county, that my blood pressure was a bit elevated, and I had the beginnings of a headache. I have been having these headaches that radiate up the back of my head, and my neck constantly feels stiff. The cold that I have been battling for nine days now hasn’t helped. The doctor said they are tension headaches. I’m not sure from where the tension is coming. I wonder how much of that kind of thing is genetic. If anyone has any ideas, please send them my way. Yeah, I know, you’re thinking – a yogini having a problem with tension, that stuff must not really work. I say, yeah, you’d think, but I’m still “practicing” and it is what relieves me most days. It’s like magic.
The girls have decided that they don’t like snow. Deladis is not happy at the large flakes falling today. She said it’s too cold and she is ready for Spring. Aren’t we all? I’m pulling all the stops to keep them going through the days without too many meltdowns, but the last few have been harrowing. Both of the girls have began their first period of tears shortly after waking the last two mornings. Typically, I don’t have to think about that until the late afternoon.
Today, I pulled the rocking horse out of their bedroom, hoping to help them release some energy.
It helped for about 10 minutes.
Honestly, I don’t think any of us has too much energy left aside from the anxious kind.
This post seems like one big long whine. I’m sorry. I’m just tired. I am also very grateful. I am grateful for the ebb and flow of life, because there is no way we could last through any one period forever without becoming numb. I am grateful for my two little girls and their leaps and bounds everyday. I am grateful for a loving husband and best friend who takes taking care of us very seriously. I am grateful that Spring is on the way and soon I won’t be blowing my nose a hundred times a day. We will be planting a garden, playing on the back patio, and existing in Mother Nature beyond the 900 square feet of cabin.
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February 19, 2010 at 1:32 am
mommymystic
((hugs)) I am from Minnesota, and then lived in New York for a long time, so even though now I am in sunny southern CA (don’t hate me!) I do remember that feeling when you are just worn out of winter…
I get the tension headaches up the back of my neck too, although I also practice yoga and meditation. I have come to realize mine are not tension per se, but a particular reaction to working on the computer that is part physical (from holding my neck at the wrong angle) and part energetic, from the electro-magnetic ‘buzz’ the computer gives off. I read somewhere that pink flannel and pink quartz help cut that buzz, so I’m working with that, along with adjusting the height of my computer! Not sure if that is relevant to you, but just thought I’d share.
Also, came back in case you didn’t see my 2nd response to your comment on my Chakra Booklist post, re: the writings of Janet Balaskus…
February 19, 2010 at 6:15 am
breedermama
I am plumb worn out when it comes to winter. Even the promise of more snow cream can’t do much to lift the sigh that settles in when I hear the forecast of more snow. I’m with Deladis, bring on Spring! Bear is even more anxious: he says forget spring, bring on summer I want to go swimming! 🙂
On words: my favorite word of the moment is “harrowing”. Also I love the word “yogini” it’s like poetry. I love your words, even the complain-y ones.
Your post put my situation into perspective, I feel stuck in the wintery weather, but I don’t have to hike to get to my car. Yow mama, hang on it’ll be march before we know it.
February 19, 2010 at 4:47 pm
Suzanna
I remember when I was a child that Mama would have us take our old, worn out, and grown out of clothing to tear into narrow strips. We would then tie the strips together end to end, then wind all that into a ball to be used to make braided rugs, or crochet rag rugs. Perhaps this might be an inside activity for your daughters.
Wish I were back in Kentucky, my home state. I now live in Alabama.
February 19, 2010 at 7:20 pm
meorthethoughtofme
This winter has seemed to drag on quite a bit, hasn’t it? I totally feel ya.
March 15, 2010 at 2:42 am
Fun Mama - Deanna
Abigail asked me last week during our springy weather if I could get out her “pool” – the temperature was in the 60s! I’m so ready for spring too. I hope you guys get to start your planting soon.