I am uninspired to write here lately. I have so many other things on my mind. A new occupation to add to motherhood. Projects with the girls. Preparing to teach again. Required reading, that I am absolutely loving. Continuing a yoga practice and spiritual study. Then, somewhere in there I do the dishes and the laundry. The rest of the house is just what it is right now. I think today I’ll clean the bathroom. 😉
I like it this way though. I’m excited and I feel full. The only thing I am having trouble balancing right now is the work and home duties. The girls are watching more TV than we typically allow. Our days seem to have lost the rhythm they had before. We don’t have school every weekday, which is okay now since it is only preschool, but it is something I’ll have to figure out by next school year. I’ll be more planted in the childbirth teaching by then too, so I hope the balance will come naturally.
Whew! I’m busy and not complaining. 🙂
Speaking of naturally… Ivy didn’t totally give up nursing after all. She still asks a few times a day, but the nighttime nursing is over. I don’t mind at all letting weaning be child led. Yes, I feel tired sometimes, but for me it sure beats having to stick to my guns. It is the same way with me and potty training. I don’t have the wherewithal to actually train when it comes to something like that. Deladis initiated it when she was three, and I helped her as she was ready. It worked out really well. She was without accidents in about month.
I have been noticing more and more how our children develop naturally. I mean, without being taught directly. Ivy is learning so many words, and is putting together sentences. She has started helping me with the dishes on her own. She even knows where to place them in the drainer. I noticed how carefully she handles the knives with the point away from her, gently placing it on the dry towel. Before today, I always just took them away from her, or did it myself, making sure she didn’t touch them. Today, I watched ready to help if needed. A very safe environment in which to learn. Ivy showed me she already knew what to do and can handle bigger jobs when Mama is around to observe.
Deladis has started coloring between the lines. This definitely wasn’t something taught, as we generally don’t have a firm stance on coloring books. We prefer a blank page. Deladis has come to love both. She is coloring some creative pages, showing us that coloring books can foster creativity.
Deladis has also learned more about birth being normal than I could have ever imagined having never witnessed it in person. I could blame it on Milo and Otis or the few birth videos she has seen. But, I don’t think so. She is learning about family structure, innately sensing gender and a variety of family units in her play. Her favorite family to play with are her cattle. She has a bull, cow, and a calf. I think they are Jersey. The mama will say, “Oh, I feel like it is time to have a baby. I think I will lay down and rest on this soft pillow until my baby comes out.” The cow will lay down and soon her baby is born. She stands up, licks her baby, and jumps for joy. The bull then looks at the cow and says, “Isn’t that a cute little face.” Then, he joins in the love.
It is great to watch my girls grow. How if I just provide them with warmth, nutritious food, and love, they will develop into who they are without much else. It is amazing. We all are born into our place. Sometime between childhood and adulthood, many of us get lost and spend so much time trying to dig through the muck to find ourselves again. I hope my girls will grow and become independent without too much muck.