Don’t Know Why

I can expect about three or four times a year to have a crisis of emotion that comes out of no where and has no reason.  Today, is one of those days.  I don’t know what to call it because it usually only lasts a day or two.  But, in those one or two days everything seems wrong.  Not with those around me, but within.  Like suddenly my effort is unreasonable.  Like suddenly there is no reason.  Like suddenly even triumph is failure.

It’s on days like this when I long for some good girlfriends to talk to.

This quote struck me today.

“…there is one thing we are very, very good at – fooling ourselves. It’s the only thing we’re good at! We’re not good at fooling others. But we will try forever to deceive ourselves.”

Karen Maezen Miller author of Mama Zen: Walking the Crooked Path of Motherhood

I wonder about deception.  I wonder about what we perceive as struggle.  I wonder about reason.

Maybe I’m tired from a long trip and hard work.  Maybe its hormonal.  Maybe it is some reset time for the body.  Maybe…

-Thank you to Mommy Mystic for the quote.