So, I’m going to do it.  I’m going to document this time in my life right here.  As strange as it may be, I think it will be more beneficial than detrimental.  I’m a pretty upfront kind of gal.  I’ll answer pretty much any question I’m asked, but lately you just don’t know who is doing the asking – or should I say reading.  Anyway, I have decide not to care, and go on with it.  You hear about employers trolling Facebook to get a sense of who you are, checking your credit score, and then deciding – nope they’re all sorts of crazy.  Honestly, we all have our quirks, hangups, and bad habits.  We are human.

In trying to figure out the whys of these new feelings I’m having, I am looking into what I know to be right with things.  Maybe, this will help me know where not to look.  Actually, I’m a step ahead of this post, but I’m starting here.  What do I still feel is right with life?

  1. I love being a wife and mother.  I feel guilty about the quality of which I am doing this job lately, but I know it is a job I was meant to do.
  2. I believe we were right to come home to the mountains.  I get lonely, and I miss my sister and best friend (Ariana) so much.  But, there is not another right place for my family right now.  Exciting things are and will continue to happen here, and the Haywoods were meant to be a part of it.
  3. I am glad I started working.  I love my job, and all the facets that it has come to fruition in.  This is another aspect that I can often come to question, but in the long run, I think I’m one of those women who needs to work.
  4. I’m excited about our new family business.  That I don’t question at all. 🙂
  5. I still believe that God works in mysterious ways, and I am right in admitting that I ain’t the best in working through the difficult questions.

That is where I am.  That is what we’ll keep.  The rest is up to a revamping.  It’s almost exciting, though working on self stuff is always the hardest work.  Getting motivated is the first obstacle to tackle.